There is some comfort (and distress) in the fact that I know when I’m feeling burnt out or low, it’s a cycle. On the day I feel the worst, I can at least find peace in the fact that the next day, I’ll feel one hundred times better.
And so it was! I’ve been in somewhat of a rut or mental fog for a month and some change. I got knocked off course and instead of letting myself get through it, I did things to make it worse versus things to make it better. Now, I’m in a position to use my very welcomed surge of energy to do things to get myself back into a place where I feel good again.
I walked to the Tiergarten with Russ on Saturday and I listened to background music. The sky was overcast and the leaves were bright yellow, deep orange and fiery red. He was so excited to be in a big open park, smelling everything he could. I didn’t have any plans or time I needed to be home by. I packed his water bottle in my backpack so we were free to do whatever we wanted. As we were walking through the leaves I thought, this is exactly how I want to feel on a Saturday.
I read some of my book this weekend. I got a bagel. I went for long walks. I stopped by Muji for new stationary to write letters. I drank a lot of peppermint tea. I tried a new workout class. Maybe all of these things together contributed to the lifting of the fog?
I wrote something on my substack recently which prompted a friend to ask me if I’d ever write a book. This thought has been on my mind a lot recently. I want to try, for myself if nobody else. I want to take on the challenge of either compiling essays that would constitute as a book, or develop the concept for a novel. The idea of creating characters and working on a storyline is a bit daunting and out of my comfort zone but I think it would be a good exercise for me to branch out of my normal style of writing.
We’ll see. . .
Anyway, I’m looking forward to the next two months seeing as I’m hosting both Thanksgiving and Christmas at my apartment! More on that later~